non-sensical. sence.

I've never felt as alone as i do now. its weird. and I'm trying to recall the words I spoke last night that rang so untrue in his ears... perhaps I should pay attention to what I say... why is there so much static??? I thought love was all you needed, stupid beatles, they always did lie, how do you explain yellow submarine, thats why I thought! what the hell is love anyway? an emotion? but why do we as humans have the power to adore and appreciate the beautiful, oh why did I let go of sanity? why did I let go of you? I feel happy and sad at the same time, oh tears of sorrow need to fuck off. I need to cry those tears of joy I sobbed only wednesday night when I arrived home from his... Urgh stupid scientists, invent a time machine, oh whoever can fix this I offer you my soul. fix me fix me fix me. I'm losing my marbles now, oh frabjous day, callou callay!  and now I am nocturnal, for my sun, he has fled, how come nothing is making any sence, yet words of pure insanity flow from my fingers, remember remember, all i remember is launching a treasured possesion and you leaving me behind, remember remember, i need to remember, I am not a liar, oh I am so forgetful, make sense make sense, thoughts running though my head, synapse to neurone straight to my fingers, why don't I remember last night, beyound the fuzzy coldness that reminds me of how you walked away, how i can remember how raw my eyes were, and all the tears wept, remember brain please, what did I say?? help me help me, oh flashbacks won't you plague me. SOS SOS maybe my brain is finally failing me, who knew who knew? oh my this is tragic, do I buy a grave stone or fight the jabberwock that is my demons. I wish I knew, I wish I remembered.